Preparation

When I’m prepared, I have confidence.

So one would think I would be preparing all the time, right?

Wrong.

With confidence can come ego, and the thought of preparing is below me since I am feeling so great.

But the only reason I have that ego is become of preparation beforehand.

So when I show up not prepared and do poorly, I get upset and go back to preparation to build more confidence. Which turns into ego…etc. etc.

Human minds are interesting things…