My biggest trap is thinking that the next promotion, the next bonus, the next goal accomplished is going to solve all my problems.
The problem with that is when I look back at my life 5 years ago, everything I said I wanted I basically have.
But my mind only jumped instantly to the next milestone and then that was going to solve it all.
I’m not sure if this is everyone, so I’ll speak for myself.
It’s hard for me to be fulfilled. Especially with material things like status, wealth, and accolades.
I was most fulfilled when I had little materials but focused all my energy internally.
It’s hard to have internal milestones because ‘becoming a better person’ or ‘healing yourself’ can’t be measure in a way like materials can.
You don’t get a plaque when you overcome trauma. Or go sober. Sure you can post it and it may feel that way, but deep down, that’s what matters.
You can’t articulate what waking up calm headed and grateful, truly, feels like with something material.
But damn, it feels better than any promotion, bonus, or trophy I’ve won.
My life personally is in constant flux between the internal and external.
Wanting the externals but knowing deep down it’s going to be a chase for the next once obtained.
There’s really no lesson in this, more so me getting thoughts out there.
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